Time to quit slacking off

The past couple weeks I have been off of my routine and eating way too much food. I am feeling very guilty.

Last week the 4th of July holiday threw off my running schedule, so rather than running my 13 miles over 3 days I ran it in 2. (I was proud of myself for still fitting it all in at least). I also did two less days of spinning (gym was closed on the 4th and on the 5th my foot was still hurting pretty bad). [EDIT: I almost didn't give myself credit for the intense 90 minute spin class I did on Saturday!!!! My roommate and I went to that to make up for missing Thursday due to the pain in my foot... and I believe that the pain in my arch was due to having my foot in the wrong position during spinning. Since I corrected that, I seem to be doing fine. YAY!]

This week I ran 7 miles on Monday, but didn't go to spinning because we didn't finish running until 45 minutes before the spinning class started. My legs needed time to recover. Tuesday we did arms, abs, and spinning. I even pushed myself harder in spinning to make up for not going on Monday. I was happy with that. Then yesterday I didn't go to the gym at all, because I went to see Harry Potter (LOL... lame excuse I know!). I still plan on running 6 miles tomorrow, so I will have my 13 miles for this week. (Next week I hope to run 15 miles). I am going to spinning tonight as well as doing arms and abs.

Unfortunately, I have also been eating a lot more food in general and more junk food. I have been giving into the chocolate cravings. And some evenings I am just so hungry I eat way more calories than I need (probably better described as binge eating). Now for those people who know me, I am well aware that I do not need to lose weight. I am however trying to become more tone, and eating healthier has helped that. Eating healthier has also made me feel a lot better and have more energy. It is because of this reason that I am sitting here typing this blog to keep myself from going downstairs to eat cake with the rest of my co-workers. I know that I will feel better if I just don't give in, especially since the past two weeks I have been working out less than usual. Maybe I need to start drinking more water as well instead of giving into eating more food than I need.

I suppose I am also feeling guilty since my vacation is almost here. I was hoping to get in better shape before my trip. I must at least mention that I am seeing improvements. I am much more tone than I was before, and as long as I go back to "being good", I am sure I will keep seeing improvements. I will allow myself treats every now and then, because it makes me happy, but I'm going to do better. Even while on my vacation!

Also, I am nervous about my upcoming 10K. I am certain that I can do it (after all, I can run 7 miles now!!!!); however, I leave for my trip on July 23rd and will not return until August 1st. In that time frame I will not have a chance to run, because I will be in a car or on a ferry. I will also come back suffering from jet lag I'm sure, then I have to run on August 4th. I really want to do well, but I'm worried about all that time off. I am going to make it a point to eat as well as I can as well as continue to stretch daily and do abs, etc.... ugh, I need encouragement.

I hope that writing this out will help me to focus on my goals and stick with them. Now I'm going to eat my apple and be proud of myself for not giving into the cake.

Sorry about the venting!